Allowing myself to succumb to the force of gravity
I’m finding my “new life” to be so strange, so comfortable, and so new. To be in a learning environment where every reading, every assignment, every teacher, every person I encounter challenges my practice and my patience is the best thing to ever happen to me. I was beginning to think that I had lost my passion for creating and ideating. Not that I had lost my ability to do these things… I simply wasn’t seeing the point.
I’m reading three different articles at the same time, working on three seemingly different projects but its all inherently and inexplicably connected. Interconnected! And my insides are tingly with the need to hold a camera, underline a striking sentence, begin a dialogue, explore accidents, face failure, face success. Keep going.
Do you see these goosebumps? I do. I can feel them! And with every new encounter they get more apparent. “What is this skin disease?” People will ask. “What is happening to that girl? She is one giant goosebump on the neck of humanity! Put a sweater on! This is out of control.”
I don’t even mind. I just have to keep going.
A Day in the Fire Pit
NEW PLAYLIST FOR THE START OF SCHOOOOOOL. This list perfectly covers every single aspect of the way life works when you’re in school. Finals. Late study nights. Parties. Test prep. Shooting an assignment. Anything. Everything. Sex. Drugs. Panda bears. Ergonomics. It is sumptuous, delectable; a true delight from the nose to the tail bone! Dance, cry, stick a pencil in your eye. This. is. A Day in the Fire Pit.
- Fragility by White Fence
- Yip Roc Heresy by Slim Gaillard
- Lost Wonderfuls by Skating Polly
- Endless Summer by Batwings Catwings
- August 32nd by the Narrator
- Puppet in a String by Night Beats
- The Cigarette Duet by Princess Chelsea
- Season of the Witch by Donovan
- A Mess These Days by MC Cullah
- 3030 by Del tha Funkee Homosapien
- Blues Music by G. Love
- Your Neck Around Mine by Milk Maid
- Bound 2 by Kanye West
- Wild Bill Jones by Charlie Parr
- Money Trees by Kendrick Lamar
- Anonanimal by Andrew Bird
- Dancing on our Graves by the Cave Singers
- Alligator by the Babies
- Valerie by Amy Winehouse
If any of this sounds good to you then find me on spotify (maria cameron) and listen to the playlist “A Day in the Fire Pit” — it has all of these and more!
the dictionary of obscure sorrows
n. the realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own—populated with their own ambitions, friends, routines, worries and inherited craziness—an epic story that continues invisibly around you like an anthill sprawling deep underground, with elaborate passageways to thousands of other lives that you’ll never know existed, in which you might appear only once, as an extra sipping coffee in the background, as a blur of traffic passing on the highway, as a lighted window at dusk.